Perfect Mess

"But by the grace of God I am What I am, and His Grace to me was not in vain"
I Corinthians 15:10


“You have broken down all his walls; You have brought his stronghold to ruin.” Psalm 89:40

“So now let Me tell you what I am going to do to My vineyard. I will remove its hedge and it will be consumed; I will break down it’s wall and it will become trampled ground.” Isaiah 5:5

“For He Himself is our peace, who made both groups into one and broke down the barrier of the dividing wall.” Ephesians 2:14


We recently had our land cleared.  When my husband first suggested this, I had no idea what implications this would have on my life and my sense of vulnerability to the outside world.  The couple who owned this house before us had purposefully created an atmosphere around our property that I can only characterize as “wilderness seclusion”.  And I will be the first to admit, I kinda liked it.  I liked having a sense of isolation from the rest of the world. The more isolation, the less accountability.  If the neighbors couldn’t SEE what was happening behind our carefully planted wall of trees and shrubs, they never had a reason to judge.

However, those walls also kept others from SEEING the beauty of where we live.  After all, it wasn’t the “wilderness seclusion” of this place that drew us to want to make it our home, it was the beauty of it. And as much as I wanted to keep those walls up until this place looks perfect and impressive for all who drive by to see, the walls had to come down so that process of that perfection could begin.


It’s humbling to see be laid bare and exposed, knowing that you, who just days ago could have hidden it, now have the most, let’s just say, “needy” yard in the neighborhood.

It’s scary to change, and for those moments of change and transformation to happen under watchful eyes.  It’s so easy to hide behind our walls and talk about change and transformation, never really intending to allow the bulldozers to come and tear apart the wilderness we are hiding in.

As I look out the window now, my heart is touched with the realization of how much my new “view” has truly shifted.  Just a few days ago, I was looking for deer who may still be out grazing in the morning, birds bathing in the bird bath, and tying to avert my eyes from noticing the cob weds that need clearing on the porch. But now, the walls are down, and my eyes see more, and my heart extends outward.  I can see my new neighbors’ homes, and I am more aware of them than I have been in a while.  My heart is drawn outward, beyond my private wilderness, and I long to connect with them in ways that I haven’t.

What a beautiful thing happens once our walls come down.

It reminds me of the words from the Message in John 1:14 that say, “The Word became flesh and blood and moved into the neighborhood. We saw the glory with our own eyes, the one-of-a-kind glory, like Father, like Son, Generous inside and out, true from start to finish.”

Jesus was so generous with His sight!  He had no walls, yet He came to tear down ours.  And as we allow Him to lead us outside of our “wilderness seclusion”, we can’t help but become generous in our sight too.  And not only that, but once the walls are down, oh, the beauty that others can see…once hidden behind walls, but now in plain view for the whole world to see and marvel, the glory of Christ in me and you.

Mirror Mirror, of our walls,

Who watches our defenses fall,

Please tell me who is wrong or right

So that we might end this endless fight

Mirror Mirror, of our walls

Do you see each time he makes me fall?

And she, with her smug, hardened piercing gaze,

Breaks me down, makes me lost in her maze…

Mirror, who we once stood before

Promising to always love and adore

What happened to what we saw that day?

Was it even real or did it just fade away?

Mirror Mirror, of our walls

Are you still watching our defenses fall?

Perhaps, this is all just part of Your plan

To help undue the “walls” of man

That in forced SEEING

We would begin to take down

These cold, hard stones

From Your Holy ground

And expose broken hearts

To Your perfect reflection

And in humility admit

We all need Your direction

O Mirror Mirror, of our walls

Please help our defenses fall

For we are defenseless in Your Sight

With nowhere to hide, no strength to fight

Though we look in a mirror now

How we fail to see that Thorn Pierced Brow

That Perfect Reflection of Your Love

Who rendered the Curtain torn from above

So, no wall of hate could stand before

Those You died for, Those You adore

Thank-You, Mirror Who tore down our walls

So that our defenses could fall

And on Holy Ground we could be made free

To reflect Your face of Liberty

Unwalled, Unbound, Your perfect reflection

The Glory of Christ’s Resurrection

O Mirror Mirror, of our walls

Thank-You for when our defenses fall


Eternally His and Yours,


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2 Responses

  1. Rhonda, can I identify with this. When I was told you had been interested in our house – the one with the SHEEP, I was disappointed I didn’t have a chance to meet you then. We will yet! We cleared a lot of our trees out since you were here and now enjoy a “canopy.” We sit under the canopy of His love – still seeing out but still secluded, in a way. Love, Until we meet – sister-in-Christ.

    1. Carol,
      I am so sorry I am just responding. It has been awhile since I have written, but you ladies have inspired me and I am writing again! I am SO thankful for you and for God allowing me to come out from under my canopy so I can meet such beautiful friends, such as you.

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